filling

We have so much space, i've realized. Space for anything we feel important, hell i have two beds to lay down at night and thats just in this town. Theres 3 or 4 more in another city, and im sure at least one in another.

Things change and the tugging gets tighter and when you share a shower with someone you both end up smelling the same. and thats a big deal, i feel. scents are memories most remembered and they can linger.
If it gets warmer something changes, the air, even the chemicals warp so my car has the summer smell, not the winter smell. Its a spell the sunlight casts. at last.

And it will be cold tomorrow. I will be able to sleep in late and life will trudge on. I found the barge today by the river, and my shoes were 5 pounds heavier with mud. There is a magic about this place and it flees and returns. I want to drink the water from the falls and rock pools and be wild again. actually all i want is surrounding love.

I will walk now to Lynn gym for ultimate frisbee practice. I will continue with the whole 'doing my best'.